P.S.- Recipes Please

I almost forgot.... Could everyone please go to this blog and check this out! These ladies are working really hard for the orphans in Kaz! They are putting together a recipe book and need help so, please help!!!!!!

http://www.twoheartsforhope.blogspot.com/

It will only take a minute!

I don't want to keep copying Muriel but, this is such a GREAT cause and I had read it on MySpace also so I thought I would pass it along and keep it going!

The band, Five for Fighting, is generously donating $0.40 to Autism Speaks for each time the video is viewed. The funding goes toward research studies to help find a cure. When you have a moment, please visit the link below to watch the video and pass it along to your friends and family. They are aiming for 10,000 hits, but hopefully we can help them to surpass this goal. Link to the site

http://www.whatkindofworlddoyouwant.com/videos/view/id/408214=20

PLEASE, PLEASE check it out and pass it along!!!!

I was tagged!

Okay, this is fun.... But I don' t really know 7 people to tag cuz everyone has already been tagged but I'll try!

~The rules are to link the person who sent this to you and leave a comment on their blog so their readers can visit yours.
~Post the rules on your blog
~Share 7 strange/weird facts about yourself
~Tag 7 random people at the end of your post, linking their blog

1) I have a 12 year old brother AND a 12 year old nephew

2) I love Nascar

3) I love horror movies, books, shows about the supernatural, etc.

4) I have hundreds of Barbie dolls, in the box, from my youth, in my attic

5) I'm a packrat

6) I hate spit and people spitting and general mouth related issues such as the dentist and cleaning my teeth, ewwww!

7) I under NO circumstances want to be buried when I die! I am very claustrophobic so everyone like to make fun of me about this and this is one of my most personal issues and when I even think about it I loose my breath!

Gloomy, Cold Saturday......

I really don't have a whole lot to say today and I've been trying to post everyday. It's been a really gloomy, gray, cold Saturday so I went and played with baby Caitlin today. That would make anyone feel better.

Okay, so I stole this from Muriels blog, but I love it so very much and I want my family and friends to be able to see and read it.

You Know You Are an Adoptive Mother (or you should be!) if:

1. The fact that there are 143 million children without a parent to kiss them goodnight has ever made you lose sleep.

2. You realize DNA has nothing to do with love and family.

3. You can't watch Adoption Stories on TLC without sobbing.

4. The fact that if 7% of Christians adopted 1 child, there would be no orphans in the world is convicting to you. (Think about this!!!)

5. You spend free time surfing blogs about families who have experienced the blessing of adoption.

6. It drives you crazy when people ask you about your adopted child's "real" parents.

7. You have ever been "pregnant" with your adoptive child longer than it takes an elephant to give birth (2 years!)

8. You had no idea how you would afford to adopt but stepped out in faith anyway knowing where God calls you He will provide.

9. You have ever taken a airplane ride half way around the world with a child you just met.

10. You believe God's heart is for adoption.

11. You realize that welcoming a child into your heart and family is one of the most important legacy's you could ever leave on this earth.

12. You know what the word Dossier means and you can actually pronounce it!

13. You have welcomed a social worker into the most private parts of your life.

14. You shudder when people say your child is so lucky that you adopted them, knowing full well you are the blessed one to have them in your life.

Author Unknown

That was a breeze :)

Our home study is done, well our home visits are anyway. The ladies that did our visits said they would send us our copies in a couple of weeks and that they would send everything to our agency! I am so excited I could scream from the rooftop! I am going to work on finishing my dossier now. Oh and somehow get my hunny started on his Hep series. I've had mine from working in the healthcare field, but anyway I guess one step at a time, lol! And I am not complaining!!!!!!!

I will miss Heath

I was shocked to turn on the TV last night and find out about the sudden death of Heath Ledger. I love Heath. He has always been one of my favorite actors. One of my favorite movies is "10 Things I Hate About You". I was really excited to hear that he was going to play the Joker in the newest Batman movie. When anyone passes suddenly you will hear rumors, believe me, I know first hand about that. I heard that he had been having some trouble with insomnia which I totally relate to, having problems with insomnia in the past myself. After my Daddy died for months I had problems sleeping and was taking meds to help me sleep and was also having problems with night terrors, which the doctor told me was normal after a traumatic event. I was sleeping only a few hours every night. Things eventually went back to some type of normal, I mean I lost my father very suddenly. I really feel sorry for the Ledger family. The lost a son, a brother and a father at a very young age. I can't wait to see Batman so I can see his final performance as an actor!

1 down, 1 to go

Today went better than I ever could've imagined. After almost 24 solid hours of cleaning and my mini panic attack, everything is great. There were two SW that came today. One named Brittney who is working on her license and Leah, who is licensed already. They asked some questions like, why we want to adopt, how long we dated before we met, etc. It was pretty basic. We have 2 more actual interviews to go, but 1 more home visit. They were impressed with our house and loves Garretts room. Our little Gabby was so good during the visit, she hopped up in Leahs lap and acted like a little angel! I was sooo impressed, lol! Looking forward to Friday now!

My favorite people!!!!

Daddy and Gabby
I thought thought that I would let everybody see the pics of my favorite people today! Enjoy!!!!!

My niece Aubrey



My niece Ally


My baby Gabby


Me and Danielle











I thought this last pic was just really pretty, this is Danielle, my sister in law and her daughter, my niece Caitlin Grace, aren't they beautiful?

Sadness deep in my heart

A certain agency really pulled a good one this week and we all know who I'm talking about. I hate it really bad not just because people lost a lot of money but because a lot of people lost dreams. I hope that it's just temporary set backs for the most of them. I know that personally that we could not have financially withstood to have lost anything to them. We are by no means rich and are having to borrow and fundraise for ALOT of our adoption. I'm just really glad to have gotten out when we did and to not have gotten in any deeper than we did. I just look at all these blogs and think how lucky we are but how sad I am for everyone else and I am very sorry for them. I know how long we have waited for our dreams to come true and it's just so very wrong.

Anyway, I have a really big week ahead of me and I am really excited. I think I am the most excited I have been for the very beginning. I got a letter yesterday saying the state of Alabama got my prints back from the FBI so, after my home visits, they can just edit and send it to the state. No waiting on my prints. Progress.....

HOMESTUDY!!!!!!!! (finally)

I guess good things come to those who wait..... Our home visits are next Wednesday and Friday!!!!!!!! I am super excited!!!!!!!! And nervous. I have no freakin' idea what to expect. Any ideas and suggestions are appreciated! I know that it isn't anything to freak out over and we should be super casual about it but, ahhhhhh!!!!! Anybody wanna come help me clean???? lol

A Really Fun Day!

Yesterday, we woke up and decided to get up and just get in the car and go somewhere for the day and spend time together. We were not sure where we were going, until we got there. We started traveling and decided to go to Birmingham, Alabama which is about 2 hours south of here. We looked at "big trucks" along the way. (Jeremy is in the trucking industry, and can't decided whether he wants to buy a new truck or rebuild his engine) Anyway, next stop- Joe's Crab Shack, not on the diet plan, Suz, sorry! OMG! It was soooooo good! I had crab stuffed mushrooms and popcorn shrimp, oh and a margarita! yummy! Then we decided to go to a movie, I've been wanting to see, I Am Legend ,since it came out. It was wicked interesting. I cried when the dog died! The dog could have lived damnit, but anyway, it had been a long day so we headed home to our "children" Gabby and Spike. We though that the day would be complete without ice cream so we made the trip to the local Dairy Queen for Blizzards, the end to our perfect day!

P.S.

Me and Jeremy are now offically signed with Adoption Ark.....Cheers for us!!!!

Another Rainy Day

So, who did the rain dance? It is thundering, lightning, raining and we've been under a toronado warning today. On top of all of that I have had to work today with my back hurting really, really bad. My vertibres are swollen and inflamed. It is actually hot to touch and I am having muscle spasms on top of that. If I take a muscle relaxer I go to sleep so I can't so that and work so, I guess I'll suffer through it so...... Anyway prayers for Muriel... I can't get her off my mind today, being in her shoes three times. Believe me it is not a good feeling. One time a nurse practitioner working for my OBGYN termed it a "bad pregnancy". I thought that was completely uncalled for. When all you what in the world is a baby and to finally see those two pink lines, then comes the spotting and cramping, then the drawing of the blood. Then your the nurse tells you how sorry she is but you can always try again, or your so young. I am just to the point that emotionally I CAN NOT handle that anymore. No more. That's why we decided to adopt. I want to just be a mother, to just love a child. We just want to be parents whether its a biological child or adopted child. I have seen some of the best people on the face of the earth not be able to have a child and on the flip side I have seen the scum of the earth have the most beautiful babies only, to have them taken away....Why?

Resolutions, anyone???? : )

I hope everyone is having a great New Year! I woke up this morning in horrible shape with my back with swollen discs and the whole nine yards! Ugggg!!! But anyway......Okay, so, as fas as resolutions go, I need to lose 30 pounds, well 32 pounds. So, now I 'm on Topamax for my migraines which has among other things, the the wonderful side effect of appetite suppression. Let me tell you, I am NOT hungry. Nothing tastes good. This morning I tried to eat a banana and it was just horrible. I was able to wash my morning meds down with a Slim Fast which does have protein and vitamins in it. Carbonated beverages are completely nasty! Yuck! They taste like a mouth full of sugar. I have actually lose 4 pounds in 5 days which I'm not sure is good or bad. I am a little tired but another side effect of the drug is fatigue and also, I am working extra because of the adoption and so forth. I am also in the low dose stage of this medication taking 25mg in the am and in the pm. On Friday I will take 25 in the am and 50 in the pm. The following Friday I will take my max dose of 50 in the am and 50 in the pm. My doctor says the side effects will level off after the first two weeks thank goodness! Has anyone else out there in blogland took Topamax with a side effect of weight loss? Have a great day!!!!!