Yes, that's my final answer!!!!

Okay, so we sent in our application to Commonwealth today! This is our FINAL move. This has to work out for us. We are out of options, lol. I really have to laugh to keep from crying. I still feel strongly that Kaz was just NOT the place for us. Some people think I am just crazy for this. My gut still tells me that I'm right. But, I feel we made the right decision for us. I talked to Erica from Commonwealth today. We were really impressed with their references and Erica, our new adoption coodinator is sooooo nice. I told her everything that we had been through and she thought that we had made the right choice. At the end of the day we just couldn't trust a facilitator and we really did our research on this one. Gretchen thanks so much for your encouagement! And congrats again :) I am so happy for you! Hugs and Kisses, Manda

New Pics

I just thought I'd share with everyone the new pics of me and my hubby! I thought they were really great! Nothing new to report on the adoption front. Just keeping the faith, praying that something will come up. I've talked to a new agency, Commonwealth, the one Gretchen uses and they seem great. In fact I talked to the lady that works with her, Erica. Anyway, shes sendin' me some info. Other than that I have nothing, anyway....

Patience

Patience.... I have none. I should have known how hard waiting was going to be but, it is just hard. Though I have not lost sight of what we have wanted for so long, I am just tired. (if that makes sense) I sometimes just ask the Lord for a sign that what we're doing is what we should be doing. I need a direction and I need it now! I am so busy waiting on the big things to happen that I am missing out on the small things. That's not fair to me or anybody else. I just pray that I can have the patience and faith to keep it all together because sometimes I think I am losing my mind........

Oh well.....it's ok

Okay, well, things didn't work out with the match. Like I said earlier, I didn't get my hopes up and things are fine. I am however throwing myself into having a really great profile, which I want to put together myself. It seems so impersonal to have someone else do it. I know that there is a baby out there for us. I am not hopeless. I know that the timing is just not right yet, but it will happen! :)

A ray of hope

Well, we were contacted to day with a possible match! I'm NOT getting my hopes up but it seems really hopeful! The mother is from Alabama and is due May 4th. The baby is 1/2 cau and 1/2 hispanic and it's a boy! It seems too good to be true and probably is! They are presenting us to her so please, please pray for us. We also were presented with a few other situations so that just incase this doesn't work out that there are other options which were all the same race. I am so nervous that I could puke. It seems so quick that it's almost hard to imagine. That's probably why it seems so unreal. Do people really match this quick?????

A whole new world

I just had to share this, I I luv the way that Coco crosses her feet. Matty looks so old with her gray beard!!!!

The past week has been very interesting as we explore our options for domestic adoption. We are still very excited and I'm more anxious than EVER! We have found several options for agencies/facilitators. I really want to research before we decide. I kinda feel like I'm test driving cars, lol. Jeremy said the other day, what if its a girl?!? We are totally unprepared for a girl, lol. We have a nursery full of little boys things! We will manage I can assure you!!!!!

A tough decision

After much prayer, thought, consideration, we have made a decision that I want to share with everyone. We have decided to change our adoption plans and do a domestic adoption. With everything that has been going on and the new changes that have to be made to home studies and dossiers, we are feeling less and less comfortable with the situation. We have found a wonderful organization called Lifetime Adoptions that we had a phone interview with on Friday that we may sign with. They aren't actually an agency, they're a facilitator, matching birth mothers with adoptive families. Because we aren't race or gender specific, they said that it is highly likely that we may be matched with a birth mother within 3 to 6 months. (But, I'm not going to get my hopes up.) It's hard to change our game plan so late in the game, I feel like I'm leaving my heart in Kaz. Please pray for us and the decision we have to make. Hugs and Kisses!!!!!