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A certain agency really pulled a good one this week and we all know who I'm talking about. I hate it really bad not just because people lost a lot of money but because a lot of people lost dreams. I hope that it's just temporary set backs for the most of them. I know that personally that we could not have financially withstood to have lost anything to them. We are by no means rich and are having to borrow and fundraise for ALOT of our adoption. I'm just really glad to have gotten out when we did and to not have gotten in any deeper than we did. I just look at all these blogs and think how lucky we are but how sad I am for everyone else and I am very sorry for them. I know how long we have waited for our dreams to come true and it's just so very wrong.Anyway, I have a really big week ahead of me and I am really excited. I think I am the most excited I have been for the very beginning. I got a letter yesterday saying the state of Alabama got my prints back from the FBI so, after my home visits, they can just edit and send it to the state. No waiting on my prints. Progress.....
I guess good things come to those who wait..... Our home visits are next Wednesday and Friday!!!!!!!! I am super excited!!!!!!!! And nervous. I have no freakin' idea what to expect. Any ideas and suggestions are appreciated! I know that it isn't anything to freak out over and we should be super casual about it but, ahhhhhh!!!!! Anybody wanna come help me clean???? lol
Yesterday, we woke up and decided to get up and just get in the car and go somewhere for the day and spend time together. We were not sure where we were going, until we got there. We started traveling and decided to go to Birmingham, Alabama which is about 2 hours south of here. We looked at "big trucks" along the way. (Jeremy is in the trucking industry, and can't decided whether he wants to buy a new truck or rebuild his engine) Anyway, next stop- Joe's Crab Shack, not on the diet plan, Suz, sorry! OMG! It was soooooo good! I had crab stuffed mushrooms and popcorn shrimp, oh and a margarita! yummy! Then we decided to go to a movie, I've been wanting to see, I Am Legend ,since it came out. It was wicked interesting. I cried when the dog died! The dog could have lived damnit, but anyway, it had been a long day so we headed home to our "children" Gabby and Spike. We though that the day would be complete without ice cream so we made the trip to the local Dairy Queen for Blizzards, the end to our perfect day!
Me and Jeremy are now offically signed with Adoption Ark.....Cheers for us!!!!
So, who did the rain dance? It is thundering, lightning, raining and we've been under a toronado warning today. On top of all of that I have had to work today with my back hurting really, really bad. My vertibres are swollen and inflamed. It is actually hot to touch and I am having muscle spasms on top of that. If I take a muscle relaxer I go to sleep so I can't so that and work so, I guess I'll suffer through it so...... Anyway prayers for Muriel... I can't get her off my mind today, being in her shoes three times. Believe me it is not a good feeling. One time a nurse practitioner working for my OBGYN termed it a "bad pregnancy". I thought that was completely uncalled for. When all you what in the world is a baby and to finally see those two pink lines, then comes the spotting and cramping, then the drawing of the blood. Then your the nurse tells you how sorry she is but you can always try again, or your so young. I am just to the point that emotionally I CAN NOT handle that anymore. No more. That's why we decided to adopt. I want to just be a mother, to just love a child. We just want to be parents whether its a biological child or adopted child. I have seen some of the best people on the face of the earth not be able to have a child and on the flip side I have seen the scum of the earth have the most beautiful babies only, to have them taken away....Why?
I hope everyone is having a great New Year! I woke up this morning in horrible shape with my back with swollen discs and the whole nine yards! Ugggg!!! But anyway......Okay, so, as fas as resolutions go, I need to lose 30 pounds, well 32 pounds. So, now I 'm on Topamax for my migraines which has among other things, the the wonderful side effect of appetite suppression. Let me tell you, I am NOT hungry. Nothing tastes good. This morning I tried to eat a banana and it was just horrible. I was able to wash my morning meds down with a Slim Fast which does have protein and vitamins in it. Carbonated beverages are completely nasty! Yuck! They taste like a mouth full of sugar. I have actually lose 4 pounds in 5 days which I'm not sure is good or bad. I am a little tired but another side effect of the drug is fatigue and also, I am working extra because of the adoption and so forth. I am also in the low dose stage of this medication taking 25mg in the am and in the pm. On Friday I will take 25 in the am and 50 in the pm. The following Friday I will take my max dose of 50 in the am and 50 in the pm. My doctor says the side effects will level off after the first two weeks thank goodness! Has anyone else out there in blogland took Topamax with a side effect of weight loss? Have a great day!!!!!
