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Me and Jeremy are now offically signed with Adoption Ark.....Cheers for us!!!!

Another Rainy Day

So, who did the rain dance? It is thundering, lightning, raining and we've been under a toronado warning today. On top of all of that I have had to work today with my back hurting really, really bad. My vertibres are swollen and inflamed. It is actually hot to touch and I am having muscle spasms on top of that. If I take a muscle relaxer I go to sleep so I can't so that and work so, I guess I'll suffer through it so...... Anyway prayers for Muriel... I can't get her off my mind today, being in her shoes three times. Believe me it is not a good feeling. One time a nurse practitioner working for my OBGYN termed it a "bad pregnancy". I thought that was completely uncalled for. When all you what in the world is a baby and to finally see those two pink lines, then comes the spotting and cramping, then the drawing of the blood. Then your the nurse tells you how sorry she is but you can always try again, or your so young. I am just to the point that emotionally I CAN NOT handle that anymore. No more. That's why we decided to adopt. I want to just be a mother, to just love a child. We just want to be parents whether its a biological child or adopted child. I have seen some of the best people on the face of the earth not be able to have a child and on the flip side I have seen the scum of the earth have the most beautiful babies only, to have them taken away....Why?

Resolutions, anyone???? : )

I hope everyone is having a great New Year! I woke up this morning in horrible shape with my back with swollen discs and the whole nine yards! Ugggg!!! But anyway......Okay, so, as fas as resolutions go, I need to lose 30 pounds, well 32 pounds. So, now I 'm on Topamax for my migraines which has among other things, the the wonderful side effect of appetite suppression. Let me tell you, I am NOT hungry. Nothing tastes good. This morning I tried to eat a banana and it was just horrible. I was able to wash my morning meds down with a Slim Fast which does have protein and vitamins in it. Carbonated beverages are completely nasty! Yuck! They taste like a mouth full of sugar. I have actually lose 4 pounds in 5 days which I'm not sure is good or bad. I am a little tired but another side effect of the drug is fatigue and also, I am working extra because of the adoption and so forth. I am also in the low dose stage of this medication taking 25mg in the am and in the pm. On Friday I will take 25 in the am and 50 in the pm. The following Friday I will take my max dose of 50 in the am and 50 in the pm. My doctor says the side effects will level off after the first two weeks thank goodness! Has anyone else out there in blogland took Topamax with a side effect of weight loss? Have a great day!!!!!

Fundraising ideas????

Oh! I almost forgot, I need fundraising ideas!!!!! If anyone has any suggestions please let me know. I live in a rural area and it is hard to fundraise so ideas are very appreciated!!!!

Things are changin'!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas! I know that I personally recieved more presents than I feel like I really deserve. But just being around all the people I love was the best thing ever. I know that next year we'll be sharing the holidays with our little prince!

I am still waiting on the call from my home study agency. I am growing very impatient with them. Other news.....We changed adoptiona agencies! I am almost giddy with excitement to say it outloud. For quite a while now I have had a nagging feeling that something was very, very WRONG. I have prayed about it and then a few nights ago after speaking with several people (wink, wink) we changed to Adoption Ark. I spoke with Jill yesterday and she says that with the way things are going that we could travel by June or July! I feel really good about the change. We look forward finishing our journey with them! Thanks Suzanne, Matt and Muriel!

Merry Christmas!

Hey everyone! I hope this message finds everyone in good health and spirits! I am excited to say that I finally got all our clearences and they can finally set up all our home visits! I am so excited I am just ready to move along with our home study. We finally got our nursery put together and I have to say it is soooo cute. I am just so ready to have Garrett home and for us to just be a family. My biggest dream!

Happy Holidays

Well, I know I haven't had very much to talk about lately. The past few weeks have been hard because this is my first holiday season without my Daddy. It has just been so many firsts this year. It is just too hard. I think I've cried everyday for the past 2 weeks. Last Saturday was the Auburn-Alabama game (a b-i-g deal in the big state of Alabama). My Dad was a huge Auburn fan and so am I. We watched that game together every single year. I watched it with my husband (an Bama fan), my brother Matt and some friends this year. (War Eagle) Auburn won for the sixth straight year. My Daddy was in heaven watching that game! I just miss him so much.

Anyway, we're still waiting for one of my clearences to come back before they can come do the home study. I have the most of our dossier together. I'm beginning to thing that I'm going to have our dossier before the home studys even done. (ugggggggg!) I know, I know, the waiting is the worst part. I keep telling myself that but it's not really any consulation. At least I know that the good Lord willing by next Christmas Garrett will be here with us and it will be another year of firsts.